Right now is a new moment. It’s a new hour. A new minute. A new second. This very moment in time is completely fresh and untouched, just like the ones ahead.
Life can be chaotic. Life can be boring. Life can be a roller coaster.
A lot of times it’s more difficult to start off my blog posts on an uplifting note. This is because typically what motivates me to write is pain. And honestly, if that’s what it is, then I’m going to work off of that. I’d rather give you all deep insight and inspiration from what’s prominent in my life at the moment, rather than a surface based post just out of wanting variation in my topics. Plus, if you read through till the end of these, you know I always end on a positive note. Onwards!
I haven’t done art in… awhile. Like… a long while. I haven’t had any motivation to. Today changed that.
I was sitting in the corner of my room crying, pulling my tarot cards (which, of course, were on the dot like always) and I was so emotionally drained. Going back to school has been quite a difficult transition and I’m learning to break free from my past, as well as finding balance in all aspects of my health.
While I was sitting there the main things I thought of were:
- “I’m so tired of feeling this way. I’m so tired of repeating actions from my past that don’t benefit me. I’m so tired of not moving on.”
- “I know tomorrow will be better, but right now absolutely sucks. I fear this will always happen. I’ll always fall back into this hole no matter what.”
- “Why must my mind be so clouded? Why does it take so much work to be happy?”
- “Why can’t I have a day without having to plan out every single part? Why do I need to make 20 To-Do lists to remember who I am and what brings me happiness?”
A lot of fear based thoughts and I have answers to all of them. And still, they consume my mind constantly. That’s life. Sadly, it isn’t all rainbows. You have to build from the ground and it takes a lot of work… but it’s worth it. It is. I know it is.
The cover of this post is an art piece I did after that moment. That piece is how I’ve felt today. It’s titled Nightingale of Change.
This post doesn’t have much, though it’s important to me.
Right now is a new moment, and tomorrow is a whole new day. Let’s try our best.
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